| Location | Long Sutton, Spalding, Lincolnshire |
| Age | 17 years |
| Cause of Death | Road Traffic Collision |
| Date of Birth | 03/11/1989 |
| Date of Death | 23/10/2007 |
| Visitors | 8,687 since 26/10/2007 |
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Kerrie-Ann Powell passed away on October 23rd 2007 aged just 17, following a tragic car accident just one day after passing her driving test, something which she has worked towards for so long. Kerrie was a hairdresser, a passion she had had from a young age. She leaves behind many people who loved her and miss her so much. I am one of those people. I knew Kerrie from when I was in year 8 at school, she was in year 7, and before long we'd sit together on the school bus, and I soon came to learn what a special, beautiful person she was, and I came to trust her more than anyone. I confided in her and she knew how to make everything seem better instantly, whether it was with a hug, a smile or just letting me know she was there. Now she is gone, and my hearts been destroyed. My life has changed so dramatically I can't even explain, and every day I wish it was me and not her. She had so much to give, and that has been taken from us all, and it's not fair. And every day I live with the guilt that in her last few months we only spoke a few times as I was preparing to head to university by working all the hours I could. I love you Kerrie-Ann, and I would give my everything to have you here today.
I found this poem on GTS some time ago, and unfortunately didn't note the author, but if anyone could tell me who it was I will add it immediately. I want to put it here as it sums up all that I feel, but I could not write those feelings myself because my thoughts are just too jumbled:
My world will never be the same, yer there's nothing I can do,
I just try to recall the happy times, the one's I spent with you.
I try to hide my feelings, but sometimes they're clear to see,
Grief is not an illness, it's something that lives with me.
It isn't something I can explain to others, I wouldn't even try,
I sit alone and think of you, and my tears just never run dry.
We are supposed to learn to live with grief, but it isn't easy to do,
When the only person who can stop this pain just happens to be you.
You never thought this would happen, and neither did I,
You're the last person in the world I thought would ever die.
It goes without saying that I love you every day, and miss you so much more,
You were part of my life for so very long, and I part that I adored
xXx
Sent with love ♥
Thinking of you is Easy,
We Remember you each day.
The heartbreak that we feel
Just never goes away,
♥⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰⊱
Nothing is the same no more
As we try to carry on,
We want the way it was before.
We found out you were gone,
♥⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰⊱
Yes we have our memories,
We also have the pain,
But all we ever wanted ..
Was to have you home again.
♥⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰⊱♥⊰~⊱♥⊰⊱
Copyright Jan Morris 2009
Thinking of you and your family
Love Jan & family xxxxxx
x♥x♥x Please forgive me cont x♥x♥x
... I’ve deleted her number so I can never do such an awful thing again but I just don’t know how to make it up to Stephy babes. I know you will be so so ashamed of me, all I wanted to do was find a way to make you proud but I know all I will have done is made you mad with me and I’m so very very very sorry angel I love you so much and I don’t want you to hate me. How can I make it up to you and them sweetie, please help point me in the right direction cos I’ve apologised but don’t know what to do next.
I’m so awful Kezza.
I really hope you can forgive me my angel.
Best go cos I’ve got myself all upset
Love you so so much sweetheart
xxxxxxxxx
x♥x♥x Please forgive me x♥x♥x
Heya angel,
There’s sooo much I could talk about as it’s aaages since I last wrote and I’ve been on hol which was very eventful to say the least, and a few dramas since then, but I’m sure you know all about it cos I know you will have been there with me and if I tell you everything about everything I’ll be here for days and I know you’d get bored wouldn’t you missy ;-p
But I do need to have a chat to you about a couple of things babes. I’ll start with the least important one … Really struggling with what to do about you know who huni, he is really really lovely and was amazing at the weekend (apart from that little incident that he doesn’t remember from the night but I don’t blame him for it he is still single after all) and I really thought that after the state I was in he wouldn’t want anything to do with me ever again and I actually wouldn’t blame him for it one little bit so I backed off and stuff but then he asked why I’m being weird so I ended up being really honest this morning and saying what I think etc and he said he was glad I was honest with him instead of pushing him away etc … but I don’t know he is too good for me babes and I’m also so so worried cos you know everything I went through before and how hurt I was and it’s taken a hell of a long time to get over it. I’m probably just being silly but you know what I’m like, please find a way to let me know what to do sweetie, you were always so good at helping me with this stuff.
Okay now for the serious one … As you know last Wednesday had a night out with the law girlies but was a little bit of a state all day cos was missing you sooo much angel and I just wanted what I was feeling to go away so I ended up drinking faar too much and then somehow text your mummy just saying that I feel I’m letting you down babe and that I know you’d be so proud of all she’s achieving but I don’t know what to do to do the same for you cos that’s all I want and I know it was so so wrong of me babes and it was a really horrible drunk think to do but I just didn’t know where to turn I can’t talk to my own mum aarrgghh. But I text her to apologise and just felt so guilty Kezzie I regret it so much and if I could turn back time I would. But then Saturday came and it was flower parade and yet again I was a bit of a mess missing you had way too much vodka by lunch time and passed out on the river bank and apparently paramedics came I was so bad and noone could wake me but I don’t remember that but when I came round Steph came over and wanted a word and she was so upset with me huni said how out of order I am etc and she’s right babe but I just couldn’t listen to it just cried and cried and cried cos I felt so guilty about it already and she said how much I upset her and your mum and Kerrie I really didn’t mean to I love them to bits and that’s the last thing I would ever want it really is and so I text your mum and apologised again and again and she said to forget about it but I can’t Kerrie, I really can’t...
Sent with love ♥
I had an awful dream last night
Forget it tho i try
I dreamt that i was holding you
And it really made me cry.
♥
I told you that we missed you
Saw that smile upon your face,
Told you just how much we need you
And your love we cant replace
♥
I told you that we loved you
Thought my mind was going insane
Thought this nightmare wasnt true,
And woke to lose you once again.
♥
Copyright� Jan Morris 2009
Thinking of you and your family
Love from the wallers xxxxxx.
♥
Well Kerrie, tonight I leave for the airport and fly out at 6 in the morning, please be with me because I'm really scared about the drive all the way to Manchester, need you to guide me please. I'm still not excited really, I was when I booked it but I've been finding it hard ever since then, I just wish you was here Kerrie. I've woke up with a horrible cough and cold too which is the last thing I need, hopefully some sunshine should dry it up though. It will be nice to spend some time with the girls but I just wish it wasn't 18 months since I lost you on 23rd. Oh well I'm back on 24th so I will be down to see you then sweetie.
I asked Anna if she would mind coming on here and lighting you a candle every other day or something so that I know you're not being forgotten about on here but she didn't want to, doesn't think these sites are good and that I shouldn't feel I have to come on here, but I do, but I didn't want to go into it with her so I'm really hoping that if I ask nicely everyone on here will look after you babe. I promise I will be thinking of you all the time and I'll try to give you a text huni.
Kez I wish you'd come home.
Off to get my haircut in a min, it should be you doing it Kez, my personal hairdresser hehe. And I'm sure you'd be telling me lots of stupid things to do on holiday and probably get a bit carried away lol. Ooooh I'm all upset. This is so hard.
Lets talk about something else... I went to the cinema with you know who last night, was really really lovely, and I am starting to like him a lot and I'm actually going to really miss him while I'm on hol, he said he will miss me too which was sweet. I'll have to see what happens when I get back I guess babes, but try and work your magic for me yeah.
Well I'd better get off, soooo much to do, so little time.
Love you so much angel.
Will be thinking of you always while I'm away. WIll have a drink or four for you ;p
xxxxxxxxx
Sent with Love
All our days we think of you
And our hearts ache us to say.
Our teardrops are trying to tell us
That we miss you more each day.
♥
We will have some good days
But often they are bad
Thinking of how sweet you are
And the memories we have.
♥
We will try and carry on
through the heartache and the pain,
We know it wont be long
Till your in our arms again.
♥
Written by Jan Morris ..xxx
Thinking of you and your family
Love from the Wallers xxxxxx
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♥ I bought a special easter egg ♥
♥ Especially for you ♥
♥ I wrapped it up with all my love ♥
♥ And sent it off to you ♥
♥ Benieth the big red ribbon ♥
♥ I placed a gentle kiss ♥
♥ The special easter egg i sent ♥
♥ Is for the one i truly miss ♥
LOVE ALWAYS GLORIA ANTHONY'S MOM
... Just cos I run out of room doesn't mean I'm going to shut up lol!
Oh yeah, I lost a bloody wheel trim didn't I, please help me find it cos they were a lot of pennies and brand new and I know they can only be round the backroads cos thats the only place I went. Luckily everything else with the car has been fixed, haven't had much luck with it so far but then I remembered I hadn't put you're picture in the heart frame in it and so I did that and touch wood nothings gone wrong since then. Got very upset driving to lynn on saturday though cos they've put flashing slow down signs at the junction where we lost you and new road markings to show who's right of way it is, and I just think maybe if they were there when you were trying to pull out then maybe you'd still be here today. I just want you back Kez. Cos I'm really hurting right now. But then I still don't think they've done enough, the roads still incredibly hard to pull out onto cos it's hard to see whats coming through the bushes, there needs to be a roundabout or something, but I suppose these signs are a step in the right direction, even if it is too late for us.
Well i'd best get off sweetie cos I'm getting all upset. I just need you to come home.
Love you so so so so much
Missing you like mad Kerrie-Ann
xXxXxXxXxXx
X18 KAP
Well Kezza, I just lit you a candle telling you I'd write later but for some reason the message disappeared so I thought I'd write now.
I've really been struggling these last few days huni, I know how much you used to love the sunshine and I miss you being all excited about it, persuading me that I had to go sunbathe, and you're not here to do that now so I just stayed inside and got on with some uni stuff. If you was still here we would've cracked the bikinis out wouldn't we. I just miss you so much, there's something to remind me of you every second, I just wish I could be reminded of you without it hurting so bad, I want to remember you and smile, not cry all the time. I just feel empty Kez, you meant so much to me and now I'm just lost, I've forgotten which direction you'd set me off in with all the help you gave me and I just can't find it without you here. That's why I'm really looking forward to all this charity stuff, I need a focus.
I was going to come and see you today but mum was working from home and she gets mad at me for coming down so much so I didn't come, I will later in the week and will come armed with flowers. I just wish she understood why I like to come down there, I guess she never will though so I just need to live with it.
Well I saw mumi P in her new car today Kezzie, its lovely, and I know you would absolutely love it with your number plates on it wouldnt you. So I gave her a text and she was very happy that I approve hehe. Still should be popping round this week or next which I'm really looking forward to.
Saw Kimmy out on thursday night which was really nice to, she really is so nice Kez, can definately see why you got on so well, I don't know her that well yet she's always happy to chat. Hopefully we're going to do something over Easter too. So I'm going to be a busy girlie, what with uni work and Spain aswell. I like to keep busy though, stops me from thinking too much cos it's when I start thinking that I start to get myself in a state isn't it.
Oh dear, what else can I tell you about. Well I'm kinda liking someone atm but I don't know him that well so I shall have to see where it goes, not got my hopes up given how things usually work out for me, but I think you'd approve. There's just that niggling feeling about you know who in the back of my head still even though he treated me like rubbish. Oh dear. It's nice to have someone to chat to anyway.
OOOPSY i've run out of room ...
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