| Location | Long Sutton, Spalding, Lincolnshire |
| Age | 17 years |
| Cause of Death | Road Traffic Collision |
| Date of Birth | 03/11/1989 |
| Date of Death | 23/10/2007 |
| Visitors | 8,687 since 26/10/2007 |
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Kerrie-Ann Powell passed away on October 23rd 2007 aged just 17, following a tragic car accident just one day after passing her driving test, something which she has worked towards for so long. Kerrie was a hairdresser, a passion she had had from a young age. She leaves behind many people who loved her and miss her so much. I am one of those people. I knew Kerrie from when I was in year 8 at school, she was in year 7, and before long we'd sit together on the school bus, and I soon came to learn what a special, beautiful person she was, and I came to trust her more than anyone. I confided in her and she knew how to make everything seem better instantly, whether it was with a hug, a smile or just letting me know she was there. Now she is gone, and my hearts been destroyed. My life has changed so dramatically I can't even explain, and every day I wish it was me and not her. She had so much to give, and that has been taken from us all, and it's not fair. And every day I live with the guilt that in her last few months we only spoke a few times as I was preparing to head to university by working all the hours I could. I love you Kerrie-Ann, and I would give my everything to have you here today.
I found this poem on GTS some time ago, and unfortunately didn't note the author, but if anyone could tell me who it was I will add it immediately. I want to put it here as it sums up all that I feel, but I could not write those feelings myself because my thoughts are just too jumbled:
My world will never be the same, yer there's nothing I can do,
I just try to recall the happy times, the one's I spent with you.
I try to hide my feelings, but sometimes they're clear to see,
Grief is not an illness, it's something that lives with me.
It isn't something I can explain to others, I wouldn't even try,
I sit alone and think of you, and my tears just never run dry.
We are supposed to learn to live with grief, but it isn't easy to do,
When the only person who can stop this pain just happens to be you.
You never thought this would happen, and neither did I,
You're the last person in the world I thought would ever die.
It goes without saying that I love you every day, and miss you so much more,
You were part of my life for so very long, and I part that I adored
xXx
Next to you
You cannot see or touch me
But I'm standing next to you.
Your tears will only hurt me,
Your sadness makes me blue.
Be brave and show a smiling face
Let not your grief show through.
I love you from a different place,
Yet I'm standing next to you.
Sent with love ♥
Everyday we mourn for you,
In everyway we grieve,
All our hearts are broken,
Why did you have to leave.
♥
Everyday we think of you,
Everyday we cry,
We will Carry on throu life,
With a tear in our eye.
♥
Everyday we talk of you,
And give you all our love,
Were sending you lots of kisses,
To our Kerry up above.
♥
Copywrite Jan Morris 2009
Thinking of you and your family
Love from the wallers xxxxxx.
♥ I love you ♥
Oh Kerrie I'm in such a muddle, I really need you're help right now, I wish you was here huni, I need one of your hugs and a talking to.
Got an exam in the morning and i'm terrified after what happened last week, I've worked so hard all day everyday this week but nothing is sinking in, it's like I can only process all the stuff that's hurting me, like how much I'm missing you, there just isn't room for other information, it doesn't seem important in comparison to everything else, even though I want to do well so so much and I'm working as hard as I possibly can, I know you understand why sweetie. I can't stop crying. All my life I have fought and fought to be the best that I can be, to get through all the bad stuff and to work hard at school and get the best grades I possibly can, but whenever it's come to exams I've always underachieved, always left people disappointed and I came to uni promising myself (and you) that I'd be more confident and just do my best and be happy with it but then I lost you huni and things changed, all that's kept me going is needed to do the best I can for you, so I've thrown myself into work to keep me busy. I've used uni to help me cope, to help me run away from how I feel and I know that's wrong but I didn't know how else to do it Kezzie. BUt when it comes to exams everything hits me, the extra little bit of pressure tips me over the edge and I fall to pieces and I don't know what to do Kez. All I know is that I am failing miserably and not having you here hurts like hell. The thought of opening the exam results is making me cry cos I know what they're going to say and I'm going to get chucked out of uni and that will actually be the end for me Kezza, we both know that. I just feel like I am fighting a never ending battle and each day I'm losing a little bit more of that fight. Help me babes.
Sweetie each day is getting more and more unbearable, it's not that I'm missing you more because that isn't possible, I'm just so disappointed in myself as I know I'm failing you, I know you'd want me to be strong and to focus on uni (and having fun of course) but I just can't do it Kerrie, I can't handle the pressure which is so silly of me I know.
Aaaarrrrggghhh huni what is wrong with me?
I'd best get off, too upset right now
xXxXxXxXxXxXxXx
I love you
Sent with Love
Each night we look
To the stars and the moon,
We will never understand
why you were gone too soon,
We cant eat, we cant sleep
And we cry all day,
Getting through each day
Is the only way,
♥
We cant turn the clock back
And wish to have you here,
Even in our dreams we just want
To have you near,
Were going through the motions
With a tear in our eye,
It hurts even more because
We never said goodbye.
Copywrite Jan Morris 2009
Thinking of you and your family
Love from the wallers xxxxxx.
♥
Well huni, I'm off back to Sheffield for the night tomorrow, got my first exam Thursday morning at 9am, how I'm going to be able to concentrate or actually even sit still for 3 hours 15 minutes I don't know huni, can you sit on me or something hehe, you know how fidgetty I get lol! But three hours of essay writing without thinking of you is impossible sweetie and so worried that I'm going to go into a dream world, but then I guess it won't actually matter if I do cos I don't know enough stuff to write for that long, I think I could write what I know in about 3 minutes babes, just can't get anything to sink in, my heads full of far more important stuff! Apart from the dreaded exam looking forward to a night away from home though huni, and I strangely enjoy the drive, makes me feel so free, hope you're watching over me though babe cos I am very nervous when on the road, got my little picture frame to remind me to be careful though haven't I gorgeous.
Well I guess you saw what went on last night, wasn't good was it babe, hope you understand why I got myself in such a state. Was really glad when Martin replied cos when I text him really crazy stuff was going through my head, just wanted this all to be over but he was really sweet and I don't know it just instantly calmed me down. I don't understand why I feel I can tell him that stuff though huni, I don't know him that well, wish I knew him better though, and you know how I usually don't trust people easily, it's really strange, I just can't work it out Kezzie. I really really like him and I know he doesn't like me in the same way, as friends yeah but nothing more and I can live with that cos he's been the most amazing friend to me these past few weeks, months or however long it's been. Make sure he knows he means alot to me yeah sweetie.
Hmmm what else to say, oooh the thunder last night, you know how much I hate it, well it's not the thunder it's that where theres mr thunder theres usually mrs lightning lol, bet you was right pissing yourself at me wasn't you ;p I was thinking about that night we was both freaking eachother out when the weather was like that, was soooo funny sweetness.
Well Kate is going to try and come home at the weekend so hopefully I will get a night out which I'm soooo desparate for as you know. Though I might have to go out with a paper bag over my head just so i don't scare people! lol
Eeeerm what else ... cant think of much atm, don't need to tell you cos you can see everything anyway. You know what I want to talk to you about don't you Kez, but I can't on here incase people read it.
I will try to come down with some flowers soon hun, just finding it hard atm, but hope the last ones lasted ok, I think they were perhaps the prettyest ones I'd ever got you, so will go back to that florist more often yeah, even though it is abit further away want the best for my angel don't I!
Love you lots
xXxXxXxXx
Sent with Love
Were wondering about you,
What would you look like now,
Wondering if we will get to meet you,
Somewhat, Somewhere, Somehow,
♥
Were thinking all about you,
The places you liked to go,
The things you liked to do,
The reasons why we loved you so,
♥
We just need the answers,
And until the day we die,
We will never get over losing you.
Because we never said goodbye..!!
♥
Copywrite Jan Morris 2009
Thinking of you and your family
Love from the wallers xxxxxx
Come home huni???
Kerrie I'm such a state, I've messed everything up and I can't stop crying cos of that and cos I miss you so so so bloody much, it's impossible to even explain how much babes.
Why has nothing ever gone right for me huni? YOu know what I'm talking about there sweetie so I don't need to write it on there. It's like if I leave stuff to see what happens it messes up and then if I decide to try and help stuff it still goes wrong. I can't do anything right. It was all fine when I had you to make me look on the bright side, to help me 'reclaim the fun' lol, but now when everythings going wrong all I can think of is how I can't have my Kezzie hug, infact I think of that when It's all going right too.
I just want you home where you belong huni. I hope that video I made shows you that, I can't put it on here cos it won't work cos the creator has to be a sponsor or something apparantly. Silly rule ey. Hope you've seen it though sweets cos it was all for you.
Ah huni there's so much I need to say but I can't find the words just now, I will try to write you a letter to bring down to you or might just come for a chat tomorrow. Or maybe I can come be with you? I want that more than anything right now, to escape this pain, to see my special angel again :'(
Love you more than life sweetheart.
Why did you have to go?
xXxXx
Just a quick note ...
I'm upset as you can see uni so not going to write tonight but I'm going to try and give you a big update tomorrow sometime, just wanted to say sorry that the messages I've left you on here are all jumbled now babes, been editing them (took the poems out) and I'm silly and forgot it puts them to the top and loses the original date which is a shame cos they were from ages ago hun, if I'd realised would've typed the original date onto the top. O well, just wanted you to know, you know how I hate being disorganised hehe, always used to laugh at me didn't you ;p
Talk tomorrow anyway hunibunch.
Love you to the moon and back
xXxXxXxXxXxXx
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